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Monday, November 7, 2011
I'm sorry, I'm hopeless, I've give up already. No point trying hard on me, putting more effort in to me, Just wasting ur precious time on me. I've no hope already, You're just forcing me to do what i dislike,' The expectation you give me is really too high for me to make it, I'm not as perfect as what you think, i'm a silly girl that ppl always say. I'm making a fool of myself sometimes, But that's my path, I admit, i WALKED wrong path. I've regret of that. But............................................ What you still wanna expect me to do? My studys? I've try my best even though not the expectation you want, But atleast promoted right? There's not parent that want own child to retain and say is good to retain? Arbo you go take examination for me and try ? I'm seriously stress out, Just because of your forcing, Things that u wanna me do, Things that u've done to me, day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year. Maybe it's good for me, like what u say. But Thats really high. Things that you promise me, did you done it? All is pay by my SELF. you know? I don't dare to asked, Seeing ur appearance i'm really scared and making me feel like moving out from the house. I always act obedient infront of youh, When ever nasty thing that came out from ur mouth, things u done to me, i'm just tolerating , ignoring, keep quiet. I know maybe Sometimes u'll think, i'm ur biggest regretion to be apart of ur family, Shouldn't give birth me, U confiscated things that i need, You took away my most important thing . You made a promise say u will return, pay, everything. Yet? Cames to a lie. Every time i was just cheering my self, comforting my self, Be strong, not being weak and let u scold, I'm a girl, a human born to be like this, w/ this kind of attitude problem, brain, If you regret, Think i shouldn't be ur daughter, What for still give birth me? Stopped me when i wanna leave. I've enough. Ytd night, u came hospital and tell me this, I promise, i won't, i will do it, i promise. So what? Comparing me with others? They have the brain to study but i don't have. I've already awake, waken that i' was walking the wrong path in past, But nawh i told u i turn over new leaf, Changing my self, be ur expectation, But no matter how hard i wanna try, i done, Here's the result already. If you really dislike me being apart w/ ur, You shouldn't care about my health, my everything. I trying to do my best, earning to afford myself, Everything i pay. few thousand my own. without ur paying. I know i wasnt that reach even though we've 2-3 houses, But i still being obedient trying to listen to u, do what u want me do. My piercing, u always nag, so what? atleast i close some right? Atleast i close up my lips,tongue? Not as weird as past? And i've my freedom to do what i want, You can't stop me for going. I can listen to you, but not forever. I can with you, But not everytime. I've grow up already, eventhough i know, i'm still children,kids to your, But for me, i'm a teenager, nolonger that childish minded joanne, No longer that always do thing never think, being silly and believe ppl the joanneNjx! Hope you get my meaning? Everyscars that lay on my body before or after, always keep a memories, Hias, nbm, i think i've to end here already, it's long sotry, countless to shoot out, nehmind, end here bah~ Just wanna show u, let you know, I'm JoanneNJX, I can do it mean i can, Without any of ur forcing. (: |
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